Melancholy Indulgent Narcissistic Overly-critical Impatient Unrealistic Moody Contrary Impulsive Unforgiving Wistful Confused Irreverent Recently I’ve had a difficult time figuring out who I am. I feel like my life is a constant state of change, and so many elements are beyond my control. When I am in a depressive episode (nearly a year now), I […]
The last few months have really put me through the wringer, emotionally and physically. It has been incredibly difficult to go from an able-bodied, overzealous DO-er, to someone who has to accept help from others, and be satisfied with myself when I accomplish less than my usual best. My mother has dealt with chronic pain […]
I am guilty for spending hours in bed with my laptop. And pretty often, I fall asleep with my laptop on my bed. Usually, the computer will go into standby mode after 30 minutes of inactivity. When I woke up this morning, I was shocked to see this huge blister on my hand: I was […]
I’ve been obsessed with this song since I saw (500) Days of Summer last year. Diet Coke and Temper Trap…could any commercial be better?
Over the last few weeks, I have been catching up on my Google Reader. As I’ve skimmed and soaked in 1000+ blog posts over the last 3 months, I’ve found a common theme: depression. I read posts on Mormon Women Project, Blog Segullah, Mormon Mommy Blogs, FMH, Melancholy Smile, and other sites I love. I […]
I grit my teeth and fake a smile And no one knows it all the while My life is spent in waiting rooms And stressing over copays due My back is screaming, feet are numb But to share my pain makes me feel dumb I pawn my treasures and count pennies To pay doctors bills […]
Yesterday I went back to the imaging center for my second MRI of my lumbar spine. This time it was done with contrast dye, which I had a mild adverse reaction to (burning sensation, nausea, etc). Once my body calmed down after the dye was injected, the MRI was pretty simple. This afternoon the results […]
Rosie and I spent a few days away from home this weekend. When we arrived home and walked into the house last night, most of our electronics were out of place. Components were detached from cables, games and movies were mixed up and thrown into places we never put them, and an XBOX 360 was […]
In Your Eyes Love I get so lost, sometimes Days pass And this emptiness Fills my heart When I want to run away I drive off in my car But whichever way I go I come back to the place you are All my instincts, they return And the grand facade So soon will burn […]
Thank you for all of your well wishes, tweets of concern, and blog comments of sympathy. It’s been a tough few days. I’m prone to all sorts of lung nastiness (asthma, bronchitis, pneumonia, random bronchospasms) and this week has been quite an experience. I finished up my Z-Pak today, have decreased my nebulizer treatments from […]
