Tag: depression

Not Myself

Suppose I said I am on my best behavior And there are times I lose my worried mind Would you want me when I’m not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else? Suppose I said Colors change for no good reason And words will go From poetry to prose¬† And I, in time, […]

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Social Media and Narcissism

It’s time for some head shrinking! Today’s Topic: Does the use of Twitter, Facebook, blogs and other social media make us appear more narcissistic than we really are? It’s been an interesting few weeks for me. In a jumble of health problems, sleep deprivation, writing my story about surviving lung failure, travel, sticking up for […]

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Is It Worth It?

Is it worth it to ask for help? Is it worth it to try and try and fail every time? Is it worth pouring your heart out, if you aren’t strong enough to handle rejection or silence? Or if your honest pleas for emotional support are met with nonchalance…because eventually you’ll be able to snap […]

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Self-Less – Thoughts on Service and Depression in Mormon Culture

“Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father in Heaven is perfect.” Matthew 5:48 My whole life, I have been taught of the value of selfless service. If you are ever struggling with yourself, find someone to serve and it will help your situation not seem so bleak. It is important to show compassion; to […]

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Putting the CUTE back into CuteCultureChick

I may not be everyone’s ideal of beauty, but I am beautiful. At least, I believe I am most of the time. The last 24 hours have really rocked my world. An article by Maura Kelly was posted yesterday, via the Marie Claire website, entitled “Should Fatties Get A Room (Even on TV?).” In this […]

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The Dark Side

For so long, I’ve been putting off this post. It’s tough to talk about personal, difficult things in a public forum like a blog.¬† I’ve had so many people check up on me…wondering why I’m not blogging, why I’m not showing up to social events, or why I just haven’t acted like myself. I thought […]

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Phony McPhonerton

Tomorrow (or tonight, or Thursday, who knows?) I’m leaving for New York City. I’m headed to the BlogHer Conference, which I’ve been excited about for MONTHS. Excited but anxious. I’ve read other bloggers’ accounts of their past experiences at the BlogHer concerences, and it seems like it could be a fine combination of awkward, awful, […]

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One Month, One Year

It’s been almost one month since my last blog post, and it’s the one year anniversary of me moving back to Utah. Both seem hard for me to believe. Dates and anniversaries are significant to me. I have a strangely accurate recollection of dates from the past. 3/15/1995 brings a chill to my spine. 7/10/2004 […]

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Despair and Euphoria

Melancholy Indulgent Narcissistic Overly-critical Impatient Unrealistic Moody Contrary Impulsive Unforgiving Wistful Confused Irreverent Recently I’ve had a difficult time figuring out who I am. I feel like my life is a constant state of change, and so many elements are beyond my control. When I am in a depressive episode (nearly a year now), I […]

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