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Saturday in the Park….I think it was the 4th of July

Posted by on July 4, 2004 Leave a Comment

I dropped Rosie off with Steve around noon. He decided to rent a car to take to Idaho because the beater Jetta was still not fixed. I feel better about him renting though, so he does’t get stranded in a remote place like Arimo or something.

I went to Murray Park (via Noodles and Co. for Mushroom Stroganoff with steak) and enjoyed the music. There was a family doing bluegrass which was awesome. I hung out with the Moosebutter guys, and enjoyed their performance while selling their CDs with Courtenay (and I got a free teeshirt too!) Saw Bucket Brigade too.

I had plans for a double date with Chris from Logan. He was going to bring his friend Ryan, and I had Anna Berger come along. But as soon as I met him…I just had this wierd feeling. The first thing he said was…”We have two problems, we didn’t reserve tickets for the show, and I lost her date.” (the plan was to see “My Big Fat Utah Wedding” at Desert Star) We attempted a poly-date while trying to track down Ryan (dinner at Fuddruckers) but we couldn’t ever find him. And Chris wanted to be apart of the Sandy parade as part of the Huntsman for Governer, but he was being a jerk to Anna…and I really had no desire to spend the next 6 hours with him to attend Stadium of Fire. So he took us back. I felt so lame for dragging Anna on this miserable adventure.

So I wasn’t sure what to do for the evening. So I hopped on Mingle chat to fish around for something to do….

I knew about Peter B and Ryan Shupe and the Rubberband playing at Sugarhouse park, which was more interesting to me than Reba at Stadium of Fire. I called a few people with no luck, so I hopped into mingle chat to see if anyone was looking for something to do. I started whispering with yodysseus, who offered to accompany me to the park and fend off the wierdos. We had met previously at a mingle dinner at Chilis, but never got a chance to talk until this night.

We met at Sugarhouse Coffee, and got toasted salsa bagels. MMMM. Did the get to know you small talk…he’s originally from Tennessee and his accent creeps out occasionally. It’s quite cute. He goes to the U part time and works for Fox 13. He’s divorced, has some kids, but seems quite content with his life right now. A good conversationalist, and great taste and diversity in music.

We sat on blankets, listened to Peter B and Ryan Shupe, saw some skydivers, and the Junction City Jazz Band. I realy love jazz and bluegrass, and Curtis was very knowledgeable on both music genres. We counted the stars (I said 18, he said 21 “plus the stars in your eyes”) We enjoyed the fireworks display, which was much more impressive than the Usana show the night prior. After fireworks, we just snoozed in the blankets (not cuddling though) for an hour for the crowds and traffic to die down. We walked to his car which was closer, and he drove me to my car. A nice embrace in the parking lot, and he was on his way.

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Rundown of Last Night

Posted by on July 3, 2004 Leave a Comment

Last night was the first time I’ve seen Dan since I played fashion consultant for him last week, and the first time we’ve gone out since our breakup. (the real one!) I had originally asked Steve Best to go…let him know that I still value his friendship and get caught up…but he IM’d me the other night and said he’d changed his mind and wanted me to go with someone that I had more “interest” in. It kinda hurt, knowing that he thinks I’m only interested in furthering my social/love life. But I didn’t want him to feel uncomfortable either.

So I asked Dan….and he accepted. We had dinner at Fazoli’s, then headed the the Usana Ampitheater. We planned on doing the lawn seats, but when I was buying the tickets, they offered very close reserved seats for the same price. Better for the show, but the stage blocked the view for some of the fireworks. We came in as Nancy Hanson was performing. I soooo need to get some of her CDs! I ran into Mark Maughan and chatted with him for a few. He’s so goofy, but he was saying how happy my dad made him (for installing a dish)

Eclipse peformed on this rickety sound stage. The audience area was mostly gravel and picnic tables. I was glad that I had a blanket to sit on. I was in the second row (behind Kirk and Shayne’s fams……Ally is so cute!) Oh how I love seeing Eclipse live! Some of their show included….Live it on UP, Every Other Time, Coca-Cola Loser Auditions (including Dan doing a great Neil Diamond rendition) McDonalds Girl, Africa, Owner of A Lonely Heart, All My Life, a patriotic one (can’t remember, I think it was God Bless America) Danny Boy, and Zoot Suit Riot. (sold the the girl in the second row!)

After the show I talked with the guys…they are all so friendly. I chatted the most with Brandon and Paul. Paul’s little boy Ethan is sooooo adorable. He’s got his daddy’s gorgeous blue eyes (and Paul said to Ethan, “ahhh are you looking at her pretty eyes?”) Dan seemed very impressed by Paul’s sonic lip buzz. I did talk with Kirk for a brief moment. He was there is octoberrose from mingle (who I think he was at the Pearl Awards with) It’s nice to be able to talk to him again without having a crush on him. LOL

We have very nice seats, and the show was AWESOME! Mormon Tabernacle Choir and Utah Symphony under the stars….how can you beat that? A few Mack Wilberg folk song arrangements, many patriotic pieces including a medley of the anthems to our armed forces (Army, Navy, Coast Guard, Air Force, Marines) as well as the Fanfare of the Champion (John WIlliams Olympic Theme) and BATTLE HYMN OF THE REPUBLIC. The fireworks show had it’s moments…most of the big stuff was behind the stage so I missed it…but it was still fun to have the music and fireworks simultaneously.

Traffic was horrid, took about 45 min to get on the road. Afterwards we picked up Rosie and Dan gave me a guitar/singing concert. He played Blackbird and the Bachelor Blues. But when he started playing WILD THING, YOU REALLY GOT ME, and GIVE A LITTLE LOVE TO ME….I had to wonder if he was just playing them….or if it was how he really felt. He held hands out to the car, and I kissed him on the cheek when he left. There were some heart flutters tonight indeed. *sigh*

Today I am selling CDs for Moosebutter, and going on a double date with Anna from work and Chris from Logan (met him from hotornot) Desert Star and Stadium of Fire. It’s all good.

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The Scenery is Here, Wish you were beautiful

Posted by on June 27, 2004 Leave a Comment

Friday at work? Zero focus. I got some busy work done, but I was so wanting to be out the door with the earlier groups that headed up. The only things that kept me sane were my silly inquisitive calls to John at Target Optical. He cracks me up!Rosie got a ride to my mom’s house with Lisa Dobbins. I went up in the car with Christine Crossley and Wendy Hall. We had wonderful conversations of hillarity, especially about bad dates and singles wards. I talked with John for a while (my eyes have lost weight!) We got to the cabin around 8:15 and had a delicious potluck dinner. I dined on junk food, gossiped with the ladies, enjoyed the lake view, played some get-to-know-you games, and had a heavenly pedicure.

Morning breakfast and devotional were wonderful. So many wonderful people in the ward, I got to know a few people I didn’t know before. On the way back we stopped at LaBeaus for raspberry shakes and I got some homemade amaretto cherry fudge. Came home with Mandy Erb, Valerie Davidson, and Amy Thelin. And oogled over Kaden (what an adorable child!) I talked a lot about the history leading up to my divorce and a lot of the issues that I have dealt with, including my sleep problems and medication worries. They were very understanding and had some good insight.

When I got back into town, I went out to Justin’s house. We watched “Pirates of the Carribbean.” I hadn’t ever seen it yet, but I definitely enjoyed it….especially Orlando Bloom. (although I’m not too sure about the pencil-thin facial hair) I was so sleepy from two consecutive nights of sleep and I fell asleep a few times, so I will have to watch it again when I’m not so tired. We also took a drive up to Donner Park and had a talk. I am feeling some hesitations about Justin, and he’s having some about me. So we discussed that and we decided to pursue a friendship in lieu of a relationship. I am okay with that. I’m not sure I’m ready to settle down with exclusivity yet either. We decided against seeing the fireworks together, and coming back from his house I missed about half of the fireworks. I was sad.

Ended up having ice cream with John though. We started watching “Ghost” but I was too tired. I need to get back on a good bedtime schedule. I am such a zombie this morning.

Today we get a new bishopric. I need to get ready for church now.

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Lunch, Dessert, and Smokin’ Hot Fool

Posted by on June 21, 2004 Leave a Comment

Saturday I took Emily out to Kneaders for a belated birthday lunch. Oh, how I love their turkey sandwiches on focaccia (with extra Kneaders sauce!) But even better than the food was the company. It’s been so long since Em and I had some one on one talking time. (I think it was when we went to Benihana for my b-day) I got more of the Wahleecon rundown, update on the fam, heard her plans for her new place that she will be moving for Grad School. Wow…grad school. How cool is that? Here I am with my Humanities Associate Degree….and my best friend is working on her masters. I really need to figure out where I need to go with my education. Respiratory Therapy still sounds pretty good. I need to see what the U has to offer.

After Kneaders I took a quick jaunt to Old Navy to check out their rack. Nothin’ too exciting, almost bought some funky flip-flops (that would have been called THONGS back in the day….) But then my phone rang. It was Ralin, who I feel like I haven’t talked to in ages. Reception was terrible, so I went outside to my car to talk. Great gal, I need to hang out with her again.

For the afternoon, I met a new boy…Justin. He lives out in Riverton with four other bachelors in a pretty nice pad. First we played a little XBOX, Dead or Alive. I kicked Justin’s hannah with Christie and her super-duper Egyptian pokey move. We had pizza and A&W (which Justin thinks is the only REAL root beer!) and watched a hillarious episode of Futurama.(About the lost city of Atlanta) Next we ventured to the foosball table, listened to a little Evanescence and I got my hannah kicked.

“Be Somebody, or Be Somebody’s Fool” was a motivational video done by Mr. T back in the 80s. Holy Hannah….can we say hillarious? “I’m just waitin’ for a gym to open on my corner.” I laughed my socks off, so to speak (Justin jokes that he is single as a lost sock) I’ve SO got to get me a copy of that movie!. We also played a little pool. I am just about as bad at pool as at foosball, but it was plenty entertaining. Ah, the flirtation that can result in a game of pool. I once heard that it is a good game to check is someone’s “goose is cooked.” Too bad I scratched when trying to sink the 8 ball.

But here’s the real dish on Justin. I was immediately taken by Justin. Not necessarily by looks (although he does have a cute babyface) but he has a very magnetic personality. Then we were watching Futurama, I was laying on the couch, with my feet up on his lap. He was rubbing them, it felt so nice. Then he put his arm up on the couch and kicked back (obviously because he wanted to put his arm around me!) It was quite comfortable. And he kept telling me how beautiful my voice was when I was singing along to Evanescence. When we were watching Mr. T, he had his arm around me again, getting smirks from his roommates. I caught him licking his lips, in that unconcious-type way. That’s when I knew I’d caught his attention.

When we were playing pool, it was all about the flirtation. We kept distracting each other on our shots. He mentioned how he loves musicals, and was embarrased to disclose that. I was quite happy to hear it. His favorite show is Brigadoon. (he has such a great Scottish accent!) After about an hour of pool, I took a rest in the bean bag chair, and Justin joined me. We cuddled for a few minutes, and he asked, “may I kiss you?” Sometimes that question is very awkward (like hello! I’ve been flirting it up, don’t you think I want to be kissed!!) But with him it was very respectful. And “holy hannah”. What an incredible kisser. Very delicate and thoughtful, so much nicer than the awkward first kisses with Dan. And I loved how he seduced me in Italian. Very hot. He kept doing this little eye-rolling thing and groan, telling me that I was smokin’ hot. The only somewhat awkward moment was when he grabbed by butt. I totally froze up. He could tell how uncomfortable I was by it. Earlier he told me how he was checking me out while playing pool, and I figured it was all talk. Guess it was good enough to want a piece. So…other than that….I had such a wonderful time.

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Feeling like an absolute jerk

Posted by on June 20, 2004 Leave a Comment

I’ve always felt like I’m a loyal friend. I have a very hard time giving people up and letting them go on with their lives when circumstances change. This would explain why I have such a large circle of friends and acquaintances. I can be away from a friend for a year…and pick up a conversation out of the dust that feels like no time has passed. Free-spirited, and craving opportunities to meet new people for mutual life enhancement. Chalk it up to being Aquarian, I suppose. But I realize that not all people are like this.

I just read an LJ entry from my friend…let’s call him “jailbait.” He came into my life at a somewhat lonely, and significantly more confused time in my life. He is a great friend, generous, complimentary, excellent listener and advice giver (although I didn’t always TAKE his advice to heart.) We’ve had some very great times together in the last few months. However, his romantic interest in me did not reciprocate. There were some awkward moments when I had played up the flirtation and he got the “I am ready to kiss you” look in his eye. We never did kiss, but there were plentiful hugs and tickle wars on his couch (that we joke that I “used” him for) But in the last month (which consequently is the same month that Dan took up the majority of my time and thoughts) I haven’t been there for him like I once was. Not that I don’t enjoy him any less, I just had my focus elsewhere. The last time were were together, we went to a star show at the Clark Planetarium. He was an absolute grumpster that night. He kind of disappeared at the time I disappeared to pursue Dan. In his LJ entry, he was pretty fed up about me.

“…well, she just hasn’t been as good of a friend as I had hoped she would be…she never did take a real interest in me..but…she’s cool anyways…i’m much more strait talking now then I ever have been…kind of just telling people the way things really are…like w/ my “friend” NP…i told her the other day that I had just assumed that we had reached that point where we had drifted apart and going our seperate ways…as friends that don’t make an effort sometimes do…and as sad as that is, you know…I don’t need friendships where I’m the only one that is making an effort…so…I let them go that way…”

I suppose I was selfish, lapping up the attention he so willingly gave. I thought he felt like I was giving something back too…there were times we cried together for how thankful we were to have each other apart of our lives. I don’t want him to feel like I am used him, but maybe I did. I’m sorry that I haven’t been for him what he had hoped I would be. I hope he knows that I wasn’t just trying to “fake being a friend.” I don’t know if he will be willing to accept overdue friendship fees.

*sigh*

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Astrological Musings

Posted by on June 17, 2004 Leave a Comment

I’ve never been much into astrology, but at dinner last night, Gary and I were talking about it a bit. He is a Virgo. And I just busted up laughing. What’s up with me attracting Virgos? Alan’s a Virgo….Steve’s a Virgo…..Tim’s a Virgo…Dan’s a Virgo…and now Gary? I decided to do a little research on the Aquarius/Virgo relationship….. (remember, this is just for entertainment purposes!)

“On their first meeting Aquarians see Virgoans as someone who thinks like they do, in an analytical way and they find that a nice surprise. Virgoans see Aquarians in a similar way and appreciate their friendly manner. Aquarians find Virgoans have an independent nature much like their own and are easy to be friends with. Virgoans find Aquarians different to other people but sociable, someone to have an interesting time with. Neither sign has the need for an emotional relationship but this doesn’t mean there won’t be an attraction between them.

Aquarians want to be free to make friends with everyone and Virgoans need order in their lives. This combination is almost impossible but if both have planets like Venus (love), Mars (desires), the Moon (emotions) and Mercury (mentality) in other more compatible signs this match can work. If not it may be that the Aquarian feels too restricted by routine and decides to go off on their own leaving the Virgoan to sort out the mess left behind. This relationship will always be difficult but if they are prepared to work at it Aquarians can learn to be a bit more organised and Virgoans can learn that being perfect isn’t always best.”(http://www.astralarts.com/virrel.html)

This partnership unites two spirits with very different approaches to life and not a lot in common. Simple understanding, let alone sympathy, may be awfully hard to find between these two. Aquarius, the ingenious idealist, the experimenter and risk-taker, and the futuristic humanitarian works in his fashion to improve life for masses of humanity — even generations he will never live to see. Virgo is fixed on providing work and service today for people who can benefit from his special talents and skills now.
(http://www.enchantedspirit.org/Astrology/Compatibility/AquariusVirgo.php)

What do you think? Destined for failure? If I ever get married again, it will probably be a Virgo.

(postscript 3/29/09 Taylor’s a Virgo. LOL)

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Destined to NOT be a ZOMBIE

Posted by on June 16, 2004 Leave a Comment

Today is the sleepiest I’ve been on a workday in ages. I have two explanations. One is that I haven’t been taking one of my meds to keep me awake during the day. I’m in prescription stimulant withdrawl. I have my sleep oximitery test tonight. Had to take a long lunch to drive to Alta View Hospital sleep lab to pick up the machine. I’ll have to use PTO this week. GRRRR

The other reason is that right after my head hit the pillow last night, my cell phone rang. I toyed with the idea of leting it be and just attempting to sleep, but I was not tired enough to sleep as “Robotica” (my ring tone) pulsed and vibrated next to my feet. I answered the phone and it was Tim Fritz. About 10 seconds into the conversation my smoke alarm beeped. It has been beeping anywhere from every 3 minutes to every hour since February. Yes, I know that I could have avoided a lot of insanity-causing sound effects had I just gone to the neighbor’s house and borrowed a ladder (It was on my vaulted ceiling, not quite low enough to use a chair)

SO anyways…Fritz insisted on a after-midnight maintenence run to fix my smoke alarm. Kinda silly to be the damsel in auditory-distress, rescued by a mechanically-minded hotty. He has complained everytime that I have talked to him about his annoyance of the beeping. So now I can rest easy, and he won’t have to complain when he calls me. Funny that he decided to show up at 1 am.

So…that said…once I actually fell asleep, I was out like a log. With no beeping. Just only got 5 hours of sleep. Goin’ to bed early tonight with the pusle-ox in my finger. If any of you catch me up past 10 pm tonight….scold me and send my to my bedroom.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Avril Lavigne, The BEEEESS, Black-Eyed Peas, Eclipse

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Just Another Manic Monday

Posted by on June 15, 2004 Leave a Comment

Such an eventful weekend, and such a lame day at work. I will just put a few highlights from the last few days..

Friday: Orem Summerfest with Dan. “And she’s shopping at Seven-Ele-uh-ven” Missed all but the last song from Moosebutter, but I chatted with Tim and he hooked me up with a new copy of See Dee. Jon Schmidt, Nancy Hansen, and Peter Breinholt were great. Dan and I enjoyed ourselves muchly. Afterwards I introduced him the the Brick Oven. MMMMMMMMM

Satuday: Hiked in Adams Canyon with Dan. Didn’t make it to the waterfall, but did enjoy sitting on the rock in the middle of the stream, splashing Dan and enjoying the scenery. Would have liked to stay longer, but wanted to catch Peter B at Eagle Mountain. Began the concert in the back of the crowd, and with the poor sound quality I was not enjoying myself as much as the typical Peter B show. But Rosie and I ran into Leslie Allard up by the stage, and we ended up chillin’ together for a while. I also ran into Aaron Ganz and Jake Lambson with their ladies. Fun to get caught up. Scary moment of the night was losing Rosie. Had the Sheriffs do a CODE ADAM and were able to find her. Scared the heck out of me. Left early, but did catch some of the fireworks.

Sunday: Slept in (HEAVEN!) Church was great. I sang in Sacrament Meeting, which was wonderful. Gospel Doctrine was Alma 5. Talk about a pierce you in the heart chapter. But everytime I read it, I am inspired to do better. I want to have His image in my countenance. And RS was about the Priesthood. So powerful.

Was having a craving for chocolate “crisp” cookies, so I made a couple batches. Dan wanted to come over, so I figured I should make an attempt at seeming domesticated (a la Stepford Wives) In waiting for Dan, I had an impromptu visit from the cute bookstore boy. He ate my cookies and exploited my couch. But I forgive him, because he’s (in the words of Emily) “just so pretty.” Watched a very hillarious episode on Cartoon Network about spanking. ROFLMBO Then Dan came and we watched “The Sixth Sense.” Went narcoleptic on him, but it’s all his fault for being so darn comfy. Three days in a row with him. Guess we’re not so broken up anymore. He wants me to play fashion consultant for him this week. Old Navy and Chik-Fil-A date….fun fun.

Today: New update of IDX. It is completely inefficient.All of my favorite “ACTION” codes have been deleted. Wasted half my morning on failed batches and CIF’s that could only be partially completed. But on the upside, got to eat BTS cake for Heidi’s b-day. Mentioned it to Dan, and got a SAUCY email back from him. Thus, focus lost for the rest of the workday. Listened to the DMB mix CD Dan gave me today.(it was a half-eared attempt) and started reading The Stepford Wives (which Dan also gave me :) That boy just treats me so darn sweetly.

Just got an IM from Michael (mdw_hedger) He’s getting married August 18th. Funny that the last time I talked to him, he was itchin’ for a little lip. But I’m happy for him. As he would say, “good on ya!”

Ok….gonna take a break and pull some stinky weeds.

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The Fiction, The Romance, and The Technicolor Dreams

Posted by on June 10, 2004 Leave a Comment

The un-Readers Digest Version of Today: Woke up around 7:10…threw clothes on Rosie and myself. “Worked” 3 hours today, but it wasn’t much work. The cubicles were being torn down and rearranged to accommodate the new employees for our Urban Central Psych providers. Now Natalie will sit by me. Hehe. So for the first hour I was moving stuff on my desk to accommodate them ripping my desk apart piece by piece. Since our computers were down, the team bummed around for an hour or so until we could leave for the summer party. I talked to Gina, whose ex-husband got in a motorcycle accident yesterday. He is on life support, things don’t look up for him. She went to a psychic a few weeks ago, and was told a funeral would be coming up. She is freaked.

I stopped by the post office to pick up the certified letter. It was from the towing company that took Steve’s car when he totalled it two weeks ago. Since my name is still on the title, I guess that I can be held liable for the towing and impound charges. Steve assures me that the insurance will take care of it, but I need to make sure I stay on top of it.

The A/R management summer party was at the Triple D Ranch. (TRIPLE D??????) Warm, sunny, and very windy. Yummy lunch, hayride with Rosie, and even a bit of a display from a few drunk lesbians. Texted Dan many times. And won Hale Center Theater tickets in Bingo! (traded them from a golf game)

Did a little shopping. Bought some new capris and a few shirts (the best one is yellow, with FRESLY SQUEEZED in green across the front) I just love the Old Navy clearance rack…..

So now I’m home….IMing Dan.

Listened to a lot of MB20 today. MMMMM Rob Thomas. I think I agree with Ralin about the healing effects of his voice. She and I need to go on a concert roadtrip and drool over him. The night Dan and I went to the comedy club, we listened to MB20 on the way home. I told him about how I feel like what is described in Hand Me Down. And he just held me. Everytime I’ve listened to the song since I think of that….

Someday they’ll find your small town world on a big town avenue
Gonna make you like the way they talk when they’re talking to you
Gonna make you break out of the shell cause they tell you to
Gonna make you like the way they lie better than the truth
They’ll tell you everything you wanted someone else to say
They’re gonna break your heart, yeah

From what I’ve seen
You’re just a one more hand me down
Cause no one’s tried to give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now

Somebody ought to take you in
Try to make you love again
Try to make you like the way they feel
When they’re under your skin
Never once did think they’d lie when they’re holding you
You wonder why they haven’t called
When they said they’d call you
You start to wonder if you’re ever gonna make it by
You’ll start to think you were born blind

I’m here for the hard times
The straight to your heart times
Whenever it ain’t easy
You can stand up against me
And maybe rely on me
And cry on me, yeah
Oh no, no, no

Some day they’ll open up your world
Shake it down on a drawing board
Do their best to change you
They still can’t erase you
Lay them down on me
Oh yeah
You’re just one more hand me down
And all those nots don’t give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down…on me (Hand Me Down, Matchbox 20)

Say Goodbye
Dan posted an LJ entry about me today. I’ve got him quoting lyrics too..

So here we are tonight, you and me together
The storm outside, the fire is bright
And in your eyes I see what’s on my mind
You’ve got me wild, turned around inside
And then desire, see, is creeping up heavy inside here
And do you feel the same way as I do now
Now let’s make this an evening
Lovers for a night, lovers for tonight
Stay here with me, love, tonight
Just for an evening
When we make our passion pictures
You and me twist up as secret creatures
And we’ll stay here
Tomorrow go back to being friends

Go back to being friends, but tonight let’s be lovers, we kiss and sweat
We’ll turn this better thing
To the best
Of all we can offer, just a rogue kiss
Tangled tongues and lips,
See me this way
I’m turning and turning for you
Girl, just tonight

“Say Goodbye” – DMB

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