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Posted by on December 16, 2008 Leave a Comment
Clint
SWM. Age 23. Occupation: pilot

Mary
SWF. Age 18. Occupation: Student

Since Taylor met Clint at Jet U in March 2007, he’s been talking about how he’s wanted to set him up with my sister Mary. She was 16 at the time, and he was 21. Taylor was insistent. For months, we’ve been trying to arrange a time when all of us would be in town at once. He met her today for the first time in SLC; she’s 18 now and he’s 23. She picked him up from the airport and they hung out with the family. So far they’ve watched a movie together and he’s played the guitar and serenaded her, then all of the family went out to dinner when Rosie and I arrived. They plan to go snowboarding tomorrow, which both of them love to do. Will Taylor’s long-awaited jaunt into matchmaking be successful?
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True Love

Posted by on December 9, 2008 2 Comments

True love is being willing to wake up at 4:20 am to drive your husband to the airport in 16 degree windy weather with a smile on your face. And true love is having a hubby willing to come home on his “relaxing” weekend off to fix your computer when it crashes from the Facebook virus.

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Bliss

Posted by on October 25, 2004 Leave a Comment

October 8th was wonderful. I had fun getting my hair done with all the ladies, the temple was beautiful, we got great pictures, Chuckarama was….chuckalicious? The reception at Wyatt’s was sooooo fun. It was intimate enough that I had time to talk to all people there, and we were surrounded by people we love. We stayed our first night at the Grand America Hotel (they even upgraded us to a suite) and enjoyed a weekend with each other and ate lots of great food (ie the Melting Pot)

Coming back into reality was hard, since we both had to be back at work on Monday. But we were off Thursday afternoon for California. After a delayed flight, we arrived in Cali and got our rental car. We stayed at the Hilton Anaheim…which we purchased our room off of priceline.com. It was the handicapped suite, which was kinda retro-80′s tacky. At least it was cheap. We became addicted to Starbucks Vanilla bean creme frappucinos. The Cali reception was also great…fewer people than SL but equally warm and enjoyable. Mostly family and ward members. And lots of good presents.

We spent the weekend at Port Hueneme at a timeshare condo. Other than stormy rainy weather, having the beach across the street was wonderful. We ate at a delicious Japanese restaurant several times, and did a little shopping at the nearby factory stores. Monday we went to the LA Temple and Visitors Center, and flew home after In-n-out with Brandon and Aileen. After arriving home near midnight, we were back to work Tuesday.

Marriage isn’t much of an adjustment…other than Taylor hogging the sheets and forgetting to put the toilet seat down…and other “benefits” of marriage, things are about the same….but HAPPIER.

Our task of the week is to find a new car. Taylor’s Bimmer has bitten the dust.

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Ketchup Quickly

Posted by on September 9, 2004 Leave a Comment

Sunday
Church with Taylor went very nicely. He read books to Rosie, put his arm around me, and I could tell that he felt comfortable. There were plenty of smug looks in our direction, but I felt completely happy having him at my side. In SS, I introduced him as someone who was interested in becoming a part of the ward. He met Jessica and Wendy, and a few other friends of mine, and they seemed to like him. After church we came to my house to finish the BTS cake, change, and then we followed each other over to my parents house.

Dinner was teriyaki chicken, which Taylor said was the best he’d ever had. And the BTS cake was good too. We watched the rebroadcast of Elder Maxwell’s funeral and had a really great talk about marriages being eternal. He had to head home earlier than I would have liked, but the quality time made up for it.

Monday
Can’t remember…that was a whole week ago!

Tuesday
Taylor was at my house when I got home from work. He had just finished up the arrangements at Shane Co. I made crockpot turkey for dinner, and he helped out making the gravy and potatoes. We dropped off Rosie at work with Karen, and headed to Temple Square. We walked around the gardens and then spent some time talking in the tabernacle. He seems supportive of my future wish to be in the Tab Choir. We did an endowment session at the temple. He said I looked absolutely gorgeous in white. I loved being able to look over at him and see his quiet, contemplative, reverence. I felt very good spiritually also…so thankful that I had been declared worthy to attend the temple. My heart was filled with so much joy as I spent time with Taylor in the Celestial Room. He kept saying “I could so get used to this.” When we walked out of the temple, he held me very close and said “I will love you forever.”

After the temple, we picked up Rosie and got shakes and headed back to my house. It was a stormy night, with lightening more amazing than I can remember. We watched the storm, sat in each others arms, and discussed the joys of our future together. He slept on my couch, and I headed up to bed….wishing we were married and could have had him follow me up.

Wednesday
Slipped downstairs, kissed Taylor on the cheek, and read my scriptures…peeking over at him occasionally. He would have made me breakfast if I didn’t have to head to work….but reality caught up to me. He had forgotten his cell phone in my car, so he stopped by work to pick it up. It was sweet to have him grab me for a longer hug after I gave him a quick one when I met him. Made the security guys chuckle.

Thursday
Steve picked up Rosie early so he could take her to festival. Ahh…a few days of freedom!

After work, I headed down to Provo to spend the evening with Taylor. He had been feeling somewhat ill…a bit of a head cold…but was feeling better by the time I got there. He made me chicken stir fry for dinner. We went over to Provo Towne Center so I could pick up my guitar case, and look for a gift for Jacob. We couldn’t find the CD he wanted at the mall, so we went to Media Play. It was so fun being there with Taylor….as big of a pop culture junkie as me! We dug through the CD bargain bins (almost got Adam Ant for him for $2) Found Jacob’s cD eventually, and then headed over to A&W for root beer floats. Funny how we felt ridiculously giddy for each other… couldn’t stop holding hands or complimenting each other. It was sweet.

Back at his place, we watched Better off Dead….on DVD! I had been waiting for it to be released…and lo and behold it was already out. It’s hard to say whether he, I or his roommates quoted it more. Can’t wait to give him some (international) language lessons. hehe.

Friday
Taylor had to work in the evening…..so I went to the Peter Breinholt concert at Brigham Young park. Super crowded….sat in the very back on the lawn…but Schroeders and Adam Shiflett and his wife (Cydnee’s sister) Wished Taylor was there with me….he would have liked it. Ran into Steve Best….a little awkward but still good to see him.

After the concert I picked up Rosie and went to Mooney’s again to hang with Esther. Rosie was sleepy the whole time, so we just chatted with Jessica…her friend from her UVSC days. I didn’t stay long…just till after Seinfeld, and talked with Taylor on the way home. He makes me so happy.

Saturday
Crazy day! Woke up early to do some cleaning, and then helped Rosie decorate her bike for the primary parade. Then went to Rachel’s baby shower at Jodi’s house. It was one of the funnest showers I have ever been too…I really bonded with my coworkers. My yarn game went over very well and the food was excellent. Wish I had more time to socialize, but I had Lori Ham’s shower to get to. That shower was also great, just sad because the Hams are moving to Arizona in a few weeks.

I met up with Taylor at my parents house. I was so tired when I got the house, I just crashed on the couch. When he came in, he gave me a tender kiss and stroked my hair until I accepted waking reality and got up. We lazed around for a while, listening to John Mayer. Then we went to Target and got some portraits taken. It was so fun to get into cutesy-kissy poses. I can’t wait to get them back….too bad it is a three week wait. Blech.

Picked up pizza for dinner, and spent the evening together at my parents house. Taylor wanted to head home early to get back to prepare for Sunday, when he noticed his front tire was noticibly low. My dad helped us change his tire, our first trial together. LOL It afforded us another hour together, so it wasn’t all bad.

Sunday
Taylor went to his ward so he could talk to his bishop about the letter for the sealing cancellation. It was sad not having him there with me, but I look forward to many times together with him at my side at church. I sang in sacrament meeting with the ward choir (As Sisters in Zion/Army of Helaman medley) and led the music in RS. (still haven’t been sustained though LOL)

Met up with Taylor after church at my parents house. Made him another mix cd of dad’s MP3s. Hopefully he will like (especially “Maybe I’m Amazed” and “Forever” by Beach Boys) Dinner was tacos, with GG and Pop, and Linda and Don….as well as my family. It was a nice gathering, lots of laughs and memories. Grandpa talked about his cars, and Taylor made a comment about them being less maintnence than a wife…it made everyone laugh. We had BTS cake, grandma and Jacob opened presents, then Taylor and I took off.

We stopped by Martell’s place to pick up an XBOX game he had left, then we went to Murray park to lay out and enjoy the evening (since Rosie was sleeping) Being there brought back many memories of my HS days (we saw the trees I planted in MCYG) We talked and sang to each other, and talked about some wedding plans. One of the nicest nights I’ve had, just spending time with him. I also asked about Amanda, and how I stacked up to her (since I can help but compare myself) He said I will always be better because I have beautiful blue eyes, I have great taste in music (she liked country) and he wasn’t as attracted physically to her. I know I shouldn’t worry…but it still happens. He resolved a few of my fears, so I feel better about it.

This week he will be packing up, taking finals, applying for jobs, and moving to SLC. I can’t wait to have him live in town!

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Not Much Time to LJ these days

Posted by on August 31, 2004 Leave a Comment

Wow….20 days since my last LJ post. I’ve been incredibly preoccupied. But I am still recording my life….just on paper. Wow, how therapeutic it is! So since then, I have been spending as much time as possible with Taylor, and copious amounts of time with my family and Rosie. But I will provide the highlights:

July 17th, Taylor proposed to me atop the hill above the state capital, at sunset. He downplayed on the evening, just saying we’d take a drive and grab a bite to eat. After talking for about 20 minutes, he said, “You know I have ulterior motives for being here?” and he knelt down. His actual words were, “Nicole Watson, you are the woman I want to be with for eternity. Will you marry me?” Back at the car he had 2 dozen red roses, and we ate dinner at Kyoto. It was incredibly romantic.

The week after, his parents came in from California. Gary and Eleanor are wonderful, I can’t wait to claim them as family. His siblings are great, and also his niece Nevaeh. Dinner with my parents went so well, fajitas were tasty, and great bonds were established. We spent and evening in Park City, swimming at the pool at their condo. I am thrilled to see them later this week when we head to Cali.

Also….Ryan Shupe and the Rubber Band at Sandy Amphitheater rocked…even though the PDA police got sicked on us. Taylor moved to SLC so I have been able to see him everyday. Quinn Wall got married. Won Charlie Mars tix in the End Zone and had a lunch date with Taylor.

Planning to leave for California on Friday morning. I am so stoked….beach, family, and In and Out Burgers. MMMMMM

Also, for any who read this….please keep Rosie in your prayers…she isn’t sick or in immediate danger….but please pray.

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Home Life…Once in a Blue Moon

Posted by on July 28, 2004 Leave a Comment

Last night Taylor and I spent the majority of the evening with my family. We had hoped that we could do a temple session, but I was unable to get an appointment with my stake president until Sunday. So we decided to chill with my family. For the first hour or so, we visited with my dad. It’s uncanny how well they get along! They talked a lot about their growing up years, it was fun to hear my dad tell stories I’ve only heard a handful of times. I have a feeling that dad and Taylor will become very very close, in a way that Steve never had the capacity to.

Dinner was somewhat interesting. Mary is at Oakcrest this week, but it was still a full house. Jacob had Jen over…a pretty interesting character (I can’t tell if they are together or not) but we was fun to listen to about her crazy life. Shawn was getting a rollicking about having a new internet girl calling him all the time, with Maria still in the picture. Jacob called him “the playah.” I busted a gut.Rosie kept saying how she was excited that she will have two dads. Steve is pretty upset about that (when he came over this week, he started fuming when she told him that. “NO! He’ll be your STEP-dad!” He was even more angry when I told him I would be proceding with cancelling our sealing)

My parents anniversary is Monday…27 years. My mom went out and bought her own gift, as usual. She got some jewelry, some magnificent BLUE moonstone. It is gorgeous. The blue moon is Saturday night….which only happens every 17 years. Taylor and I are planning on getting fancied up and go dancing at the MAC on Saturday. How cool would to be to get some blue bling for my finger(that matches my blue eyes) on the blue moon? Alas, knowing Taylor….he’s going to want to wait a few weeks (which is inconvenient for planning a wedding)

After dinner we went over to Emily’s house. She is very happy that Taylor is a H/G’er and said that alone gives her full approval. Still waiting to get Em’s impressions of him. After that,we had a little alone time…and we decided to go for a drive…but we drove each other’s cars. I’ve never drove a Bimmer…let alone a 1986 beater with no A/C or power steering. But it was fun. Some good tunes, including this one that Taylor dedicated just for me.

You’re My Home by Billy Joel
When you look into my eyes
And you see the crazy gypsy in my soul
It always comes as a surprise
When I feel my withered roots begin to grow
Well I never had a place that I could call my very own
That’s all right, my love, ’cause you’re my home

When you touch my weary head
And you tell me everything will be all right
You say, “Use my body for your bed
And my love will keep you warm throughout the night”
Well I’ll never be a stranger and I’ll never be alone
Whenever we’re together, that’s my home

Home can be the Pennsylvania Turnpike
Indiana’s early morning dew
High up in the hills of California
Home is just another word for you

Well I never had a place that I could call my very own
That’s all right, my love, ’cause you’re my home

If I travel all my life
And I never get to stop and settle down
Long as I have you by my side
There’s a roof above and good walls all around
You’re my castle, you’re my cabin and my instant pleasure dome
I need you in my house ’cause you’re my home.
You’re my home.
___

I just got an email from Esther inviting me to a slumber party. She still isn’t sure if it will be tonight or next Friday, but I’m way excited. I could use some girl talk…and a pedicure.

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So Much to Say

Posted by on July 22, 2004 Leave a Comment

So Much to Say
Wow….I haven’t updated in a few days….and when life is eventful….the posts tend to be clipped short to fit it all in. Here’s the rundown:

Sunday:
Watched the MoTab’s 75th Anniversary Broadcast. I want to be a part of them someday.
Church was excellent. Feeling the spirit more and more each week.
Rosie still in Idaho for Butler Family Reunion. Slight pangs of sadness.

Met Martel and Sharol, Taylor’s uncle and aunt in Sandy. They live right by GG & Pop’s place on Campus Drive. They have beautiful twins, Bailey and Bennett, six weeks old. It was so fun to hold little bebees! And Taylor was dang cute holding them too. Ate some of Sharol’s BTS cake, and I stumbled over trying to make a joke about it (I bet its not as good as mine!) Took some nice pictures from their balcony, and felt very comfortable. (Much more confortable than it EVER was meeting the Perrys)

Took a drive up Big Cottonwood Canyon, listening to a mix CD Taylor made for me (Including: Hold Me Now, For Once in My Life, Sarah singing Rainbow Connection, and GROWING PAINS theme song!) Drove up to Brighton, watched the clouds float and sun set. Enjoyed each other’s company…it was terribly nice to be together alone. I can’t even count the times he told me how beautiful I am. *sigh*

Monday:
No concentration at work. Listened to Fumbling Towards Ecstasy on repeat.

After work, ran to pick up a pizza for dinner and Rosie. Taylor came over to have dinner and work on my computer while I got ready for the concert. Chatted with Tonya about wedding plans….funny how I was a little jealous of her. She took some pics of us on my digital camera, but unfortunately they didn’t come out very clear. I vamped up my hair with some big sexy curls (which I don’t think I’ve done in months and months) Taylor said I looked great, but he likes me with my hair straight better.

We got to the E-Center with enough time to hit up the radio station drawings. I ran into Jorge from work with his wife, they looked almost as happy to be there as Tay and I. We were in section 103, which was just a few feet left of the stage, and we were in the center of row 13. EXCELLENT seats…worth the $150 I forked out for them. Butterfly Boucher was the opening act, who also opened for BNL. She is very cool, need to download “Little White Dash.”

As for Sarah….words cannot describe how incredible the show was. She opened with “Fallen.” The stage was very cool….almost a fantasy/LOTR landscapey thing going on. We were close enough to the stage to check out her facial expressions, but we were very very close to the video screen, so nothing was left up to the imagination. Her set list was amazing…the WHOLE Afterglow album, most of Surfacing and Fumbling, and a few early songs I didn’t recognize. She even did a little “You are my Sunshine,” and Blackbird. I could go on and on for hours about how amazing it was, if you want the full rundown….contact me!

I ended up buying her postcard set, and a poster of Afterglow. It was pouring rain as we went out to the car. Traffic wasn’t too terrible to get out and get home. When we pulled up to my house, Taylor said how he wished the night didn’t have to end there. He walked me to my door, and realized that he hadn’t put my computer back together. So he came in, and he joked “You know, we’re going to have to put my computer at this desk!” And from then on out, or conversation had a very positive spin towards the future. He didn’t propose, but he said that nothing could make him happier than the thought of me being his wife. And once that topic is mentioned, it’s hard not to fanasize about what that would be like. This should be an interesting next few months. We stayed up talking until 3 am, and I didn’t want the night to end.

Tuesday:
Work was a bugger, having only 3.5 hours of sleep. Team meeting was okay, found out I’ll be shortly moving cubicles again. *ick*
Went to Enrichment night, Preparedness night. Tried freeze dried refried beans and other lovely food storage creations.
Had a very very nice phone convo with Taylor, reminiscing of the previous night. Didn’t want to use up all of his minutes on his phone, so we IM’d for a while as he did homework and I made a child support spreadsheet. Steve owes me $300, but there’s still the inheritance issue. Ohhh….I can’t wait until he gives up on getting his money back. Grrrr

Wednesday:
Nothing too exciting, other than talking to Taylor a few times. He called me at work, and my coworkers joked about me saying “I love you too,” at the end of the conversation.
Picked up some CDs at the library to burn, almost done, then heading home to bed

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Rosie’s latest trauma and spiritual decisions

Posted by on July 14, 2004 Leave a Comment

I was in the kitchen after I got off work and I suddenly heard a massively frightening scream. “Mommy the bee stunged me!” So we iced it, put some sting remedy on, put on some Spongebob, and she’s doing much better. What’s up with all of these weekly incidents? Makes me feel like a bad mommy.

Last night I was chatting with Hedger about how he and his fiance progressed from friends to more. It was cool to hear his story…he’s sending out his announcements tomorrow. They aren’t having a reception, just a little family shindig after the temple. I’ve thought a lot about what I’d like for a wedding if I do remarry. I feel like my wedding arrangements with Steve were a little more grandiose than necessary. It wasn’t flamboyant by any means, but there were somethings that could have been omitted and I would have been happy. IFF Taylor and I were to get married, it would have to be a much smaller affair…and I’d be happy with that.

I can’t remember the last time I felt so devoted and firm in my spirituality. It’s amazing the difference I’ve felt in my life since I changed my attitude from “How bad can I be and still be good?” to “How can I draw nearest to my Savior?” I’ve been keeping up on my daily study of the Book of Mormon and Jesus the Christ. And my prayers have felt so much more purposeful. Rosie had a REAL lesson out of the manual for FHE this week, and she seemed to understand the things I read directly from the text. I feel like I’m on the right track. Back when I was visiting with Bishop Monson in January, he told me that as soon as I figured out some of my demons, gave myself some time to heal, and found my way back to having the spirit in my life…finding a good worthy priesthood holder would soon follow. And the blessing Dad gave me 6 weeks ago mentioned something to that effect…that there was a great worthy man that would soon come into my life.

I wonder if these feelings I have for Taylor are founded and real…and that the “answers” I am getting to my prayers are what the Spirit wants me to hear (not just what I WANT to hear) Last night I was talking to Heidi about the ways she felt when her and Robby started dating. It reminded me a lot of Taylor and I. She said, “When you feel right about it, consider it a blessing from Heavenly Father. Don’t sit around and rationalize it. If things are meant to be, and you are keeping the commandments and drawing nearer to Him, you will know what to do.”

My thoughts have been turning a lot to the temple lately. I have faith that I’m doing what is necessary to make it there worthily very soon. And I think it will be important to recommit to frequent temple attendance. I’m sure Em will be willing to be my temple buddy. And I also would like to attend with Taylor. However, I do feel a bit of hesitation with that because of what happened with Tim (on our “supposedly righteous” temple day) I have been having a very strong draw to the Mt. Timpanogas Temple. I’ve thought a lot about the day I went through that temple for the open house (back in ’96 I think?) I remember walking into the bride’s room, and just being overcome with the spirit…I couldn’t even stand up. I had a whispering at that time. I don’t remember the exact words, but I remember the feeling. Good things were to happen to me in that temple. I don’t know if that is where I’d choose to be sealed, but I think my first time back to the Temple, I want it to be at Mt. Timp.

I was looking through my computer, and was very pleased to realize that I had saved several IMs from Taylor! These were some of our first conversations, and I though it would be cool to have them posted and easily readable. Also, I thought I’d give a quick run-down of our first few dates…just for “posterity’s sake.”

First Email to Me
From : Taylor Bullock
Sent : Wednesday, April 7, 2004 11:02 PM
To : cuteculturechick@hotmail.com
Subject : Hello there!

Hey cuteculturechick, I just wanted to introduce myself, my name’s Taylor Bullock. Your profile intrigued me and I thought that we could get to know each other a little better. A little bit about me, I’ll be starting my final year at BYU this spring (and am SO looking forward to being done.) I’m an international relations major and would like to work for the government eventually as an analyst. Time will tell, but I’m the oldest of 7, the youngest is seven (she’s the cute redhead in the pictures) and I’m a California boy, grew up in the subburbs of LA. I love dancing (especially big band), movies, and I sing a little (or took a semester of voice lessons at any rate). I served my mission in La Paz, Bolivia, and have been home about 3 and a half years. I graduated from Ricks with an AA in Spanish and International Studies, and have been plugging away at school ever since.

I’d love to hear a little bit about you, your family, ect. You’re a U2 fan? I think we could get along! Your daughter is adorable by the way, nice work! I’ve got some studies to take care of before bed, but take care, until next time…..

Sincerely,
Taylor

First Date
We met in Murray at Baja Fresh. Did a little of the basic “getting to know you chitchat. I was suprised to hear that he had only been out of his engagement for a month, and was suprised that he said he felt ready to give dating a chance again. I remember him distinctly telling me, “You are an amazing lady,” for the trials and adversity that I seem to be handling so well. He also said I reminded him of his mother. I instantly fell for his smile. After eating, we had a few minutes to kill…so we went in my car and listened to John Mayer. We sang along, and discussed our other music interests. He may have grabbed my hand for a squeeze once or twice, and the date ended with a hug.

Work Encounter
Taylor was working at Sugarhouse Circuit City at the time. I stopped by the store on my way to working for Linda one day….a few days after our first date. I brought Rosie along, and we browsed the computer section and talked for a few minutes with him when he wasn’t with a customer. There was a flat-screen monitor that had an animated fishtank design that looked a lot like “Finding Nemo.” Rosie asked about Taylor a few times after, “Where is the boy with the fish tv?”

Second Date
He picked me up at my house, and we went to a hole in the wall mediterranean restaurant in Fort Union. He got the info off of the internet, and was embarrassed that it wasn’t all that the website made it out to be. I don’t remember the conversations much, but I do remember enjoying my time with him. We went to the Sandy dollar theater, and he let me pick the flick. I chose “The Home Teachers,” which he moaned and complained about. I thought it was pretty stupid too. He didn’t have cash on him, and I threw down the money to see the movie. He said, “My sense of chivilry can’t handle that….I need to make it up to you.” So we went to Baskin Robbins and got ice cream. A few hand squeezes, and an hug at the end.

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It’s hard to believe that this could feel so right

Posted by on July 13, 2004 Leave a Comment

Sunday morning I had planned on attending a singles ward with Kellie, since Rosie would still be gone. But I had absolutely no desire to do so after my night with Taylor. I think that my prayer and scripture study was much more advantageous to setting myself on the meat market to be observed. I chatted with Steve for a few this morning, gave him the rundown on the Taylor situation…and declined the Sarah tix. I think I want to suprise Taylor with tickets. I picked up Rosie around noon from Steve. She had such a gorgeous flower girl dress from Selena’s wedding. I think I will need to get her picture taken in it. Taylor and I made plans to get together after church.

Sacrament meeting was wonderful. I partook of the sacrament for the first time since January. I don’t think it has ever been so meaningful….

As now our minds review the past we know we must repent
The way to thee is righteousness, the way thy life was spent
Forgiveness is a gift from Thee we seek with pure intent
With hands now pledged to do Thy work, we take the Sacrament

Sunday school was also excellent. RS was on principles of financial security. We discussed the blessings of paying a full tithe. That reminded me of Friday night, when Taylor called me when I was at the dance. He had called to find out which CDs I wanted him to burn for me. He had joked, “Ah, the blessings that come from paying your tithing.” It was cool.

Scripture of the day: Alma 26:35-37

Now have we not reason to rejoice? Yea, I say unto you, there never were men that had so great reason to rejoice as we, since the world began; yea, and my joy is carried away, even unto boasting in my God; for he has all power, wisdom and all understanding; he comprehendeth all things, and he is a merciful Being, even unto salvation, to those who will repent and believe on his name.

Now if this is boasting, even so will I boast; for this is my life and my light, my joy and my salvation, and my redemption from everlasting wo. Yea, blessed is the name of my God, who has been mindful of this people, who are a branch of the tree of Israel, and has been lost from its body in a strange land; yea, I say, blessed be the name of my God, who has been mindful of us, wanderers in a strange land.

Now my brethren, we see that God is mindful of every people, whatsoever land they may be in; yea, he numbereth his people, and his bowels of mercy are over all the earth. Now this is my joy, and my great thanksgiving; yea, and I will give thanks unto my God forever. Amen.

I invited Taylor to come for dinner with my family. I went over straight after church so I had some time to be with my fam before he arrived. I gave my mom a heads up on the evening before, so she could be prepared. I had told her that Taylor had said that he loved me, and she got so excited and gave me a huge hug. I made him a mix cd of songs I like, but I think there might have been an error on it…I’ll have to ask him if it worked okay. We had tacos, then watched part of the Pearl Awards. I was hoping to see ME on camera, but the only shot I was in had my head cut off. LOL.

After watching the Pearls, Taylor and I took a walk on the Jordan River Parkway. We walked hand in had, enjoying the scenery and getting to know each other…with a little talk that nudged toward future plans. He asked me what my plans were for the next six months. I had said that I would continue to work, and make the decision about school (as to which program, full vs part time, and where to attend) I had told him that when I have prayed about it, I hadn’t ever gotten any definite positive answers. He said “You do need to make a decision though. The Lord can’t direct a parked car.” He also said that he’d like to be a part of helping me make my decision.

We did a little “comparison-ing”, how when we date people there is a a natural tendency to see how people compare to others we have been interested in. Both of us have dated several people in the two months we didn’t see each other. He said that he always compared them to Amanda. But with me, I don’t even compare…I stand on my own. (What an amazing compliment) He’s never dated or been interested in someone divorced or someone with a child, but with me it doesn’t intimidate him. We discussed how he had gotten engaged so quickly previously, and had vowed to take things slow with his next relationship. But we both know the feelings are there. We would be so good for each other. He has been good for my self-confidence, giving me affirmations like “Don’t ever doubt your self worth again,” and “You are a truly amazing woman.” How can a person not feel loved when hearing that and knowing that it is meant in all honesty and adoration?

This was one of the most beautiful and fulfilling conversations I have ever had. We talked about the importance of keeping our behavior in check, because nothing is worth losing out on the temple marriage opportunity. He didn’t propose to me, obviously….but I can definitely see us going in that direction….starving student and all. I was looking in his mingle profile today, and loved some of his comments…

If I had $10 million… I guess one doesn’t need a lot of Babylon to be happy. A nice house in the suberbs would be cool. (maybe one by the beach too!) I love to travel and would like to spend sometime in Europe and just getting to know this beautiful world, hopefully going on a lot of missions. Oh yeah, a car that doesn’t break down on me every few months would be way nice!

My perfect day would be… Going up Pacific Coast highway in a convertible (I can dream, can’t I?) with good music, good friends (or even better, my mate), and good weather. Most importantly, school has to be the most distant thing from my mind. I hope for a day in the future when I can come home from a great job and see my wife and kids and just know in that moment that all is right with the world!

One final thing I’d like to mention… Nah, I’m not that complicated! :)

Needless to say, I’m one happy camper!

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Make a wish, say a prayer, take my hand and stay forever

Posted by on July 12, 2004 1 Comment

Saturday I didn’t have much planned, and Wade called me to see if I’d like to see a movie. We went and saw “The Terminal.” Very good flick. And we got ice cream after. Very nice guy, although young. I was a bit anxious to get to my date with Taylor.

He picked me up around 6:30 and we headed up to This is the Place. He had taken my hand in his almost as soon as we got in the car, which he had never done before. He had made a mix CD of Sarah McLachlan, Sting, and John Mayer. When “Possession” came on, and we were both singing along….we gave me a look that was much more than friendly. It was a sultry hot evening, sprawled out on blankets under a blazing sun. I got a little bit sunburned, but the gorgeous sunset made up for it. Peter B and Nancy Hanson were headliners, along with some other LDS performers. However, we felt like we were a mile back and the sound system was poor, so the concert was just background noise to some wonderful conversations.

My attraction to him was nearly immediate. Beginning with holding hands, and progressing to cuddling, and eventually our first kiss. It was kinda funny because when Peter B came out and everyone started screaming…I said to Taylor “Now that’s what it’s all about!” And he replied…”No, this is.” And he pulled me in and I was a goner. There were a lot of kisses…but it wasn’t like we made out. Just a few sweet pecks here and there. And when he pulled me into his arms it just felt so….right. But it wasn’t just about our physical attraction, I also was impressed on many other levels. (Mentally, spiritually, etc…) And wow, how wonderful his compliments are! “How did you get so dang beautiful?”

We ate dinner at Noodles and Co. He told me about the rough life he’s had with his family (5 divorces, father in prison, psycho sister, etc…) And I gave him more background on my relationship with Steve, and he seemed so appalled and disgusted and the things that I’d been through in my marriage. He said that nobody deserves to be treated so terribly, and he’d never do anything to make me feel less of a person. We had joked earlier in the week that he has too much free time this summer and he needed a hobby….he said he wanted me to be his hobby. He made it very clear that he wanted to be with me, and at the end of the evening he told me that he loved me. “I love you, girl” were his exact words, and that is the first time a man has expressed that before I had.

I have been on dates with many people since my divorce…30 or so I’d guess. And even with the ones I’ve had a connection to…none of them have made me felt this way, and taken away my desire to date other men. But it didn’t take long for me to decide that I didn’t want to be anywhere else.

I spent a lot of time on my knees, reading my scriptures and studying my patriarchal blessing today. And I had a VERY strong impression that I need to allow this relationship to develop. When I was dating Steve, and had asked those same questions, my answer was to not end it, just allow it to happen and see where it went. And reading in my PB about the mate that I need to seek just sealed the deal, because I believe that Taylor would fulfill all these requirements.

I’ve been telling myself to take things slow when I found someone that I wanted to be serious with, but I have such a strong desire to pursue our relationship. As good as the answers to prayers felt today, I wonder if it is more the spirit saying it is right, or my own self wanting it to be right. Time will tell. I think that the distance between us having him in Provo may be advantageous, as hard as it will seem when we want to spontaneously get together. However, he has been thinking about moving to SLC because his friend is needing a roommate. Ah, how nice it would be….

Okay…I’m tired. I will talk about the Sunday night adventure later. I’m off to bed to “sleep just to dream him.”

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