New MHS ’98 Reunion Blog


For those looking for info on the MHS Class of 1998 10 Year Reunion, I started the official blog for information. The site is http://murray98reunion.blogspot.com

Please comment and give your feedback and suggestions for a reunion to remember!

Living in and lovin’ Cali!

So, if you didn’t figure it out…I kinda gave up on livejournal and picked up Myspace instead. Considering I only knew about 5 people on LJ, and 50 on Myspace…I changed my mind. I have some pics and post bulletins occasionally, so that’s a better way to keep tabs on me.

Also, I’ve been in CA for two weeks. I’m living in La Verne, and I’m working at City of Hope Cancer Center in Cytogenetics. Taylor will be doing an accelerated flight program, and should be flight instructing (and making money) this fall. Words can’t describe how happy this makes me. 🙂

Rosie’s doing great, just graduated from preschool and can’t wait to live in “CANNIFORNIA.” We want to finally get her into modeling and commercials, so we are going to look at agencies this summer. Also, Steve gave consent for Taylor to adopt Rosie, so she should be Rosalind Bullock by mid-July.

So that what’s up. Check me out on myspace.

Bliss

October 8th was wonderful. I had fun getting my hair done with all the ladies, the temple was beautiful, we got great pictures, Chuckarama was….chuckalicious? The reception at Wyatt’s was sooooo fun. It was intimate enough that I had time to talk to all people there, and we were surrounded by people we love. We stayed our first night at the Grand America Hotel (they even upgraded us to a suite) and enjoyed a weekend with each other and ate lots of great food (ie the Melting Pot)

Coming back into reality was hard, since we both had to be back at work on Monday. But we were off Thursday afternoon for California. After a delayed flight, we arrived in Cali and got our rental car. We stayed at the Hilton Anaheim…which we purchased our room off of priceline.com. It was the handicapped suite, which was kinda retro-80’s tacky. At least it was cheap. We became addicted to Starbucks Vanilla bean creme frappucinos. The Cali reception was also great…fewer people than SL but equally warm and enjoyable. Mostly family and ward members. And lots of good presents.

We spent the weekend at Port Hueneme at a timeshare condo. Other than stormy rainy weather, having the beach across the street was wonderful. We ate at a delicious Japanese restaurant several times, and did a little shopping at the nearby factory stores. Monday we went to the LA Temple and Visitors Center, and flew home after In-n-out with Brandon and Aileen. After arriving home near midnight, we were back to work Tuesday.

Marriage isn’t much of an adjustment…other than Taylor hogging the sheets and forgetting to put the toilet seat down…and other “benefits” of marriage, things are about the same….but HAPPIER.

Our task of the week is to find a new car. Taylor’s Bimmer has bitten the dust.

Ketchup Quickly

Sunday
Church with Taylor went very nicely. He read books to Rosie, put his arm around me, and I could tell that he felt comfortable. There were plenty of smug looks in our direction, but I felt completely happy having him at my side. In SS, I introduced him as someone who was interested in becoming a part of the ward. He met Jessica and Wendy, and a few other friends of mine, and they seemed to like him. After church we came to my house to finish the BTS cake, change, and then we followed each other over to my parents house.

Dinner was teriyaki chicken, which Taylor said was the best he’d ever had. And the BTS cake was good too. We watched the rebroadcast of Elder Maxwell’s funeral and had a really great talk about marriages being eternal. He had to head home earlier than I would have liked, but the quality time made up for it.

Monday
Can’t remember…that was a whole week ago!

Tuesday
Taylor was at my house when I got home from work. He had just finished up the arrangements at Shane Co. I made crockpot turkey for dinner, and he helped out making the gravy and potatoes. We dropped off Rosie at work with Karen, and headed to Temple Square. We walked around the gardens and then spent some time talking in the tabernacle. He seems supportive of my future wish to be in the Tab Choir. We did an endowment session at the temple. He said I looked absolutely gorgeous in white. I loved being able to look over at him and see his quiet, contemplative, reverence. I felt very good spiritually also…so thankful that I had been declared worthy to attend the temple. My heart was filled with so much joy as I spent time with Taylor in the Celestial Room. He kept saying “I could so get used to this.” When we walked out of the temple, he held me very close and said “I will love you forever.”

After the temple, we picked up Rosie and got shakes and headed back to my house. It was a stormy night, with lightening more amazing than I can remember. We watched the storm, sat in each others arms, and discussed the joys of our future together. He slept on my couch, and I headed up to bed….wishing we were married and could have had him follow me up.

Wednesday
Slipped downstairs, kissed Taylor on the cheek, and read my scriptures…peeking over at him occasionally. He would have made me breakfast if I didn’t have to head to work….but reality caught up to me. He had forgotten his cell phone in my car, so he stopped by work to pick it up. It was sweet to have him grab me for a longer hug after I gave him a quick one when I met him. Made the security guys chuckle.

Thursday
Steve picked up Rosie early so he could take her to festival. Ahh…a few days of freedom!

After work, I headed down to Provo to spend the evening with Taylor. He had been feeling somewhat ill…a bit of a head cold…but was feeling better by the time I got there. He made me chicken stir fry for dinner. We went over to Provo Towne Center so I could pick up my guitar case, and look for a gift for Jacob. We couldn’t find the CD he wanted at the mall, so we went to Media Play. It was so fun being there with Taylor….as big of a pop culture junkie as me! We dug through the CD bargain bins (almost got Adam Ant for him for $2) Found Jacob’s cD eventually, and then headed over to A&W for root beer floats. Funny how we felt ridiculously giddy for each other… couldn’t stop holding hands or complimenting each other. It was sweet.

Back at his place, we watched Better off Dead….on DVD! I had been waiting for it to be released…and lo and behold it was already out. It’s hard to say whether he, I or his roommates quoted it more. Can’t wait to give him some (international) language lessons. hehe.

Friday
Taylor had to work in the evening…..so I went to the Peter Breinholt concert at Brigham Young park. Super crowded….sat in the very back on the lawn…but Schroeders and Adam Shiflett and his wife (Cydnee’s sister) Wished Taylor was there with me….he would have liked it. Ran into Steve Best….a little awkward but still good to see him.

After the concert I picked up Rosie and went to Mooney’s again to hang with Esther. Rosie was sleepy the whole time, so we just chatted with Jessica…her friend from her UVSC days. I didn’t stay long…just till after Seinfeld, and talked with Taylor on the way home. He makes me so happy.

Saturday
Crazy day! Woke up early to do some cleaning, and then helped Rosie decorate her bike for the primary parade. Then went to Rachel’s baby shower at Jodi’s house. It was one of the funnest showers I have ever been too…I really bonded with my coworkers. My yarn game went over very well and the food was excellent. Wish I had more time to socialize, but I had Lori Ham’s shower to get to. That shower was also great, just sad because the Hams are moving to Arizona in a few weeks.

I met up with Taylor at my parents house. I was so tired when I got the house, I just crashed on the couch. When he came in, he gave me a tender kiss and stroked my hair until I accepted waking reality and got up. We lazed around for a while, listening to John Mayer. Then we went to Target and got some portraits taken. It was so fun to get into cutesy-kissy poses. I can’t wait to get them back….too bad it is a three week wait. Blech.

Picked up pizza for dinner, and spent the evening together at my parents house. Taylor wanted to head home early to get back to prepare for Sunday, when he noticed his front tire was noticibly low. My dad helped us change his tire, our first trial together. LOL It afforded us another hour together, so it wasn’t all bad.

Sunday
Taylor went to his ward so he could talk to his bishop about the letter for the sealing cancellation. It was sad not having him there with me, but I look forward to many times together with him at my side at church. I sang in sacrament meeting with the ward choir (As Sisters in Zion/Army of Helaman medley) and led the music in RS. (still haven’t been sustained though LOL)

Met up with Taylor after church at my parents house. Made him another mix cd of dad’s MP3s. Hopefully he will like (especially “Maybe I’m Amazed” and “Forever” by Beach Boys) Dinner was tacos, with GG and Pop, and Linda and Don….as well as my family. It was a nice gathering, lots of laughs and memories. Grandpa talked about his cars, and Taylor made a comment about them being less maintnence than a wife…it made everyone laugh. We had BTS cake, grandma and Jacob opened presents, then Taylor and I took off.

We stopped by Martell’s place to pick up an XBOX game he had left, then we went to Murray park to lay out and enjoy the evening (since Rosie was sleeping) Being there brought back many memories of my HS days (we saw the trees I planted in MCYG) We talked and sang to each other, and talked about some wedding plans. One of the nicest nights I’ve had, just spending time with him. I also asked about Amanda, and how I stacked up to her (since I can help but compare myself) He said I will always be better because I have beautiful blue eyes, I have great taste in music (she liked country) and he wasn’t as attracted physically to her. I know I shouldn’t worry…but it still happens. He resolved a few of my fears, so I feel better about it.

This week he will be packing up, taking finals, applying for jobs, and moving to SLC. I can’t wait to have him live in town!

Cookies and Sinatra

My Favorite Cookies
1 C. margarine softened
1 C. Sugar
1 C. Brown Sugar
2 Eggs
2 T. Cinnamon
1 T. Vanilla
1 t. baking soda
3 C. Flour
1 t. Baking powder
1/2 t. salt
12 oz chocolate chips

Cream first 6 ingredients together.
In separate bowl mix remaining ingredients together, except chocolate chips.
In large bowl, combine two mixtures with a fork, only. Add chips.
Form into balls and smash slightly on pan.
Bake 6-8 min at 400 degrees.
Altitude takes about 3 cups of flour or a little more. Dough should be dryish…

Fly Me To The Moon by Frank Sinatra
Fly me to the moon
Let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

Name Analysis

Name Analysis…Nicole and Taylor

Nicole
Although the name Nicole creates the urge to understand others, we emphasize that it limits your vision, tuning you to technical details. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid and elimination system. The name of Nicole has created a congenial nature with the desire to associate in friendship and understanding both socially and in the business world. Peaceful and settled conditions appeal to you and you are naturally desirous of having the security of a home, where your life could follow a definite pattern, and where you would not have to make major decisions. You find it difficult to take a definite stand, partly because you lack confidence, and also because you dislike any issues which create dissension between people. Procrastination is a weakness of your nature, causing an inability always to complete your plans or to concentrate for long.

Taylor
Although the name Taylor creates an interest in the deeper aspects of life, we emphasize that it causes a blunt expression that alienates others. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the lungs, heart, bronchial area, and tension or accidents to the head. As Taylor you have a great love of nature and the out-of-doors, and could have a desire to be in an occupation which takes you outdoors and involves you with the products of the earth. All the finer things of life and beauties of nature are an inspiration to you and you are attracted to the mysteries of nature. Difficulty in expression results in your being too positive, blunt, and candid in speech. Although you are easily offended by others, you do not show it. You crave affection and understanding, but rarely find it as others do not understand you and accuse you of being cool and aloof.

Rosie’s latest trauma and spiritual decisions

I was in the kitchen after I got off work and I suddenly heard a massively frightening scream. “Mommy the bee stunged me!” So we iced it, put some sting remedy on, put on some Spongebob, and she’s doing much better. What’s up with all of these weekly incidents? Makes me feel like a bad mommy.

Last night I was chatting with Hedger about how he and his fiance progressed from friends to more. It was cool to hear his story…he’s sending out his announcements tomorrow. They aren’t having a reception, just a little family shindig after the temple. I’ve thought a lot about what I’d like for a wedding if I do remarry. I feel like my wedding arrangements with Steve were a little more grandiose than necessary. It wasn’t flamboyant by any means, but there were somethings that could have been omitted and I would have been happy. IFF Taylor and I were to get married, it would have to be a much smaller affair…and I’d be happy with that.

I can’t remember the last time I felt so devoted and firm in my spirituality. It’s amazing the difference I’ve felt in my life since I changed my attitude from “How bad can I be and still be good?” to “How can I draw nearest to my Savior?” I’ve been keeping up on my daily study of the Book of Mormon and Jesus the Christ. And my prayers have felt so much more purposeful. Rosie had a REAL lesson out of the manual for FHE this week, and she seemed to understand the things I read directly from the text. I feel like I’m on the right track. Back when I was visiting with Bishop Monson in January, he told me that as soon as I figured out some of my demons, gave myself some time to heal, and found my way back to having the spirit in my life…finding a good worthy priesthood holder would soon follow. And the blessing Dad gave me 6 weeks ago mentioned something to that effect…that there was a great worthy man that would soon come into my life.

I wonder if these feelings I have for Taylor are founded and real…and that the “answers” I am getting to my prayers are what the Spirit wants me to hear (not just what I WANT to hear) Last night I was talking to Heidi about the ways she felt when her and Robby started dating. It reminded me a lot of Taylor and I. She said, “When you feel right about it, consider it a blessing from Heavenly Father. Don’t sit around and rationalize it. If things are meant to be, and you are keeping the commandments and drawing nearer to Him, you will know what to do.”

My thoughts have been turning a lot to the temple lately. I have faith that I’m doing what is necessary to make it there worthily very soon. And I think it will be important to recommit to frequent temple attendance. I’m sure Em will be willing to be my temple buddy. And I also would like to attend with Taylor. However, I do feel a bit of hesitation with that because of what happened with Tim (on our “supposedly righteous” temple day) I have been having a very strong draw to the Mt. Timpanogas Temple. I’ve thought a lot about the day I went through that temple for the open house (back in ’96 I think?) I remember walking into the bride’s room, and just being overcome with the spirit…I couldn’t even stand up. I had a whispering at that time. I don’t remember the exact words, but I remember the feeling. Good things were to happen to me in that temple. I don’t know if that is where I’d choose to be sealed, but I think my first time back to the Temple, I want it to be at Mt. Timp.

I was looking through my computer, and was very pleased to realize that I had saved several IMs from Taylor! These were some of our first conversations, and I though it would be cool to have them posted and easily readable. Also, I thought I’d give a quick run-down of our first few dates…just for “posterity’s sake.”

First Email to Me
From : Taylor Bullock
Sent : Wednesday, April 7, 2004 11:02 PM
To : cuteculturechick@hotmail.com
Subject : Hello there!

Hey cuteculturechick, I just wanted to introduce myself, my name’s Taylor Bullock. Your profile intrigued me and I thought that we could get to know each other a little better. A little bit about me, I’ll be starting my final year at BYU this spring (and am SO looking forward to being done.) I’m an international relations major and would like to work for the government eventually as an analyst. Time will tell, but I’m the oldest of 7, the youngest is seven (she’s the cute redhead in the pictures) and I’m a California boy, grew up in the subburbs of LA. I love dancing (especially big band), movies, and I sing a little (or took a semester of voice lessons at any rate). I served my mission in La Paz, Bolivia, and have been home about 3 and a half years. I graduated from Ricks with an AA in Spanish and International Studies, and have been plugging away at school ever since.

I’d love to hear a little bit about you, your family, ect. You’re a U2 fan? I think we could get along! Your daughter is adorable by the way, nice work! I’ve got some studies to take care of before bed, but take care, until next time…..

Sincerely,
Taylor

First Date
We met in Murray at Baja Fresh. Did a little of the basic “getting to know you chitchat. I was suprised to hear that he had only been out of his engagement for a month, and was suprised that he said he felt ready to give dating a chance again. I remember him distinctly telling me, “You are an amazing lady,” for the trials and adversity that I seem to be handling so well. He also said I reminded him of his mother. I instantly fell for his smile. After eating, we had a few minutes to kill…so we went in my car and listened to John Mayer. We sang along, and discussed our other music interests. He may have grabbed my hand for a squeeze once or twice, and the date ended with a hug.

Work Encounter
Taylor was working at Sugarhouse Circuit City at the time. I stopped by the store on my way to working for Linda one day….a few days after our first date. I brought Rosie along, and we browsed the computer section and talked for a few minutes with him when he wasn’t with a customer. There was a flat-screen monitor that had an animated fishtank design that looked a lot like “Finding Nemo.” Rosie asked about Taylor a few times after, “Where is the boy with the fish tv?”

Second Date
He picked me up at my house, and we went to a hole in the wall mediterranean restaurant in Fort Union. He got the info off of the internet, and was embarrassed that it wasn’t all that the website made it out to be. I don’t remember the conversations much, but I do remember enjoying my time with him. We went to the Sandy dollar theater, and he let me pick the flick. I chose “The Home Teachers,” which he moaned and complained about. I thought it was pretty stupid too. He didn’t have cash on him, and I threw down the money to see the movie. He said, “My sense of chivilry can’t handle that….I need to make it up to you.” So we went to Baskin Robbins and got ice cream. A few hand squeezes, and an hug at the end.

Tuesday, July 13th, 2004

Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
Twitterpation is a unique feeling. Forget to eat, daydreaming, and being accused of having a “smile that won’t wash away.” Nothing too thrilling went on at work, but it was a nice day nonetheless. I listened to some of the CDs Taylor burned for me (Andrea Bocelli, James Taylor, U2, and Sting) Told a few coworkers about my boy, some seemed happy, some rolled their eyes over ANOTHER guy in my life. Tried calling him on my lunch, but just got voice mail. I’m pathetic for wanting to talk to him all the time. Also picked up my Sarah tickets from the ebay guy. (We met at Fazolis. mmmm baked ziti) Monday will be such a great night!

Checked Dan’s LJ today, where he expressed some disgust over reading about my budding romance with Taylor. I sent him an email of affirmation…telling him how much the time we spent together meant to me, and wishes for a great future. We IM’d for a while, I appreciate him humoring me with a few details of my love life. “I never meant to cause you trouble, I never meant to do you harm.”

Tay and I IM’d also. I love it when he ends with “ciao bella!” He and I talked about the Five Love Languages. I so need to dig up that book for reference. He said he doesn’t think that there is one specific way that he wants to be shown love. I guess I’ll have to be creative. I said that mine was time and kind words. “LOL That won’t be easy for me!” We also talked on the phone after 9 (when his night minutes kick in) and we breached a few of the sticky subjects, like how Steve is still on the title of the house (I still am not certain on what I should do…he was saying I should sell my house at a loss and move in with my parents to save money. Not sure how I feel about that!) But I expressed some of my concerns about abandonment and self-doubt. He said that I have nothing to worry about. We made a promise to be honest, and if there are doubts and concerns about our relationship…we need to work them out as they come, not let them fester and get worse. I worry that I still have too much baggage. I’ve been thinking of going back to my counselor.

I feel like I’ve had so much extra time in the past few days! I haven’t been wasting copious amounts of text messages, haven’t made plans with other guys, and I don’t really miss it too much. I wish Taylor lived closer though, so we could spend our time together. We’re getting together Thursday night in Provo (possibly with his best friend who is married and their kid. Should be interesting)’

I’ve been thinking about my tendencies to rush things in relationships. It’s hard not to when things feel so right. I wonder why I have such a desire to make a permanent relationship arrangement. I should be taking it easy, enjoying the time we have as it comes. Must admit that I’m sad I’m not with him tonight, since it was an option.

In other news….I’ve been looking into school again. Weber’s Respiratory Therapy program is quite intriguing, and I like the idea of the distance courses and the Salt Lake Campus. Still praying about it…but I think I’ll fill out financial aid applications this week. Ah, to be a student again!

Quick Meme (courtesy of two emails I received)
CD in player: Sarah McLachlan “Afterglow”
Current Read: Jesus The Christ by James E Talmage
Last Purchase: Sarah McLachlan tickets off ebay (13th row, less than box office price!)
Next Purchase: Probably application fees for Weber State
Last movie seen: The Terminal
Next movie you want to see: The Notebook
Last Person you went out with: Taylor
Next person you want to go out with: Taylor
Last person you kissed: Taylor (my, I see a trend here)
Currently wearing: Burgandy dress and black sandals
Summer theme song: At the John Mayer concert, he said that “Clarity” was the official song for the middle of summer, and he hopes we “all find that special person to spend forever with.”

Historical Blogging/IMing

Monday, July 12th, 2004
Taylor says: I’m glad you got some quality time with Rosie at least
Nicole says: Yeah….it was soooo nice, I can’t remember the last time when I had a whole day at home with her. Oh, I got her a CTR ring today…she is so happy
Taylor says: very cool, does she know what it means?
Nicole says: “choose the wight way”
Taylor says: nice
Nicole says: when I was waking up from my nap, Rosie started jumping on the bed singing “Book of Mormon Stories” Oh, and it was so cute….I asked Rosie if he liked you…
Taylor says: oh yeah?
Nicole says: she said “yeah, he’s really nice and I like that he kisses you a lot. I think he loves you this much!” (and she held out her arms all the way)
Taylor says: lol, nice
Nicole says: so do you? (with arms all the way out?)
Taylor says: yeah I do!
Nicole says: I’ve been just floating with happiness today
Taylor says: that’s a great change of pace! Happiness and your daughter
Nicole says: so apparently I’m quite the heartbreaker…I’ve turned down 4 dates this week
Taylor says: wow, I feel partially responsible…
Nicole says: I wouldn’t have it any other way. And someone had ordered flowers to be delivered to me tomorrow….he was really mad. Luckily he was able to get a refund LOL
Taylor says: lol, nice. There are a couple girls calling me and I’ve been trying to avoid them…..but the pain will have to be faced!
Nicole says: will the pain be worth it?
Taylor says: all signs point to positive!
Nicole says: WOO HOO! Ah Taylor, you’re the best
Taylor says: I do what I can
Nicole says: well, what you’re doin’ is working for me
Taylor says: anytime girl

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: When We Dance, Sting

Rosie’s Trauma

This evening Rosie and I went to Tyson’s house. He made dinner, and we watched “Help!” in honor of Ringo’s birthday. We were enjoying the movie as Rosie fed the dogs popcorn and ran around. Suddenly, we heard a clash of breaking glass, and Rosie started whimpering. She had tripped with a glass of water in her hands, and it shattered. There was a lot of blood dripping heavily, and shards of glass all in her arm and hands. We hurried over to Instacare to have them clean up the wounds. Rosie was so brave, she didn’t even flinch as they tended to her wounds. No stitches were needed, just some Dermabond. She’ll be good as new in a few days.

After Instacare, we went to Sonic for treats. Tyson said he felt like a daddy watching Rosie be hurt and worrying that things might go wrong. We bonded a lot tonight….and he kissed me on the cheek goodbye. What is up with this week and having people that I have had lengthy friendships with…suddenly have more than friendly feelings for? Tyson is yet another person I need to do some thinking about.

I’m not sure my heart/head can process so much information at this time. As we speak, I’m on the phone with Taylor…and I feel good things from him too. And I’m IMing Steve about our good times together. My life is a soap opera, but much cleaner. This is highly unusual. I need to figure things out….I don’t want anyone to feel led on. I think my life is going manic again. I’m a bit scared.

John Mayer is tomorrow. How would it be to be there?